Advice for myself
Being a slave to your desires and instincts is not freedom. True freedom comes from taming your animalistic urges and transcending the primal, amoralistic condition imposed to you by your imperfect human nature. Weβre all inherently ο¬awed and prone to degenerating to a lesser, nihilistic, dehumanized state of being. Self-imposed discipline from adhering to higher spiritual teachings (or even to a secular, yet ethically ο¬rm philosophy of life) is a never-ending struggle for self improvement and human completion.
Youβre better than that, King.
do not confuse responsibility for stress
You likely already know what you have to do. You just donβt have the empty space to let it simmer in remembrance and then crystallize into action.
Donβt let the AI read or write for you; unused muscles are quick to atrophy. Above all, seek wisdom.
donβt look for a relationship, look for truth
Walk more slowly if you can
you might ο¬nd your mental health improved by accepting the hopelessness of your situation, and the unlikelihood of it ever improving
You donβt need other people to drive away your loneliness.
You just needed to ο¬nd a way to talk to it
If you face the choice between feeling guilt and resentment, choose the guilt every time.