I hope I’m not my only friend.

What kids are doing
They’re killing themselves
They feel they have no control of their prisoner’s cell
And if you’re one of them then you’re one of me
And you would do almost anything just to feel free

Am I right? Of course I am
Convince me otherwise would take all night
Before you walk away
There’s one more thing I want to say
Our brains are sick but that’s OK

Let it be said what the headache represents
It’s me defending in suspense
It’s me suspended in a defenseless
Test being tested by a ruthless examiner
That’s represented best by my depressing thoughts
I do not have writer’s block
My writer just hates the clock
It will not let me sleep
I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead
And sometimes death seems better
Than the migraine in my head

Am I the only one I know?
Waging my wars behind my face
And above my throat
Shadows will scream that I’m alone
But I know we’ve made it this far, kid

You’re in his living room
And it may not mean much to you
But your plates are in his sink
And your sweater’s on his bed
Won’t you text me when you’re home
My baby, spare me all the rest

Please just tell me that nobody else touches you like I do
Oh tell me that nobody else touches you like me

Well I’ve lost it all, I’m just a silhouette,
I’m a lifeless face that you’ll soon forget,
My eyes are damp from the words you left,
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.
Ringing in my head, when you broke my chest.

And if you’re in love, then you are the lucky one,
’Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I’m forever missing him.

I close my eyes till I see neon jungles
And suddenly everything’s green around me
I close my eyes till there’s no one around
Every face that I’ve known simply gone, long gone when

Out of sight no love can last when
Out of reach no bond can hold when
Out of joy no stories can be told

Into the lights unrestrained as I throw myself
Blinded and wild they will take me places
Out in the blue morning planets in bloom
Oh they’re dawning and reasonable speed and grace when

Out of sight no love can last when
Out of reach no bond can hold when
Out of joy that’s when we’re all alone

Nature knows no pain
Nature seeks no gain
Nature will remain

I hear the sound of the sirens approach
Are they going to find me, arrest or save me
I hear the sound of dissonant reproach
It’s a heap that I know I would not deserve when

Out of sight no love can last when
Out of reach no bond can hold when
Out of joy that’s when we break a bone

Nature knows no pain
Nature seeks no gain
Nature will remain

Nature knows no pain
Nature seeks no gain
Nature will remain

I have second thoughts I just cannot explain
Intermissions that keep stepping in the way
What if I was wrong when I abuse vulnerable hearts
What if I’m wrong to act like little lies don’t hurt

Second thoughts I just cannot regress
Intuitions that keep keeping me awake
What if I was wrong to take for granted what comes free
What if I’m wrong to think there’s nothing wrong with me

All trouble makers will shake the ground
And all double dealers will share the crown

I have second thoughts about what I confess
Strange reactions that just don’t match with the rest
What if I turned all the offers down and cleaned the slate
What if I finally accepted my mistakes

Second thoughts about what I’ve just said
Did I mean that or was I backing out again?
What if I decided to be brutally sincere?
If I had balls enough to face persistent fears

All trouble makers will shake the ground
And all double dealers will share the crown

Baby, we don’t need a trip, we could be right here
When the shit get weird, we could switch up gears
I wanna see them lips, kissin’ ear to ear
I wanna hear your song
Oh, I wanna feel just how you feel
Touch you one more time so I know you’re real
We could spin that wheel, wouldn’t you rather get along?

Full agoraphobic, losing focus, cover blown
A book on getting better hand-delivered by a drone
Total disassociation, fully out your mind
Googling “derealization,” hating what you find
That unapparent summer air in early fall
The quiet comprehending of the ending of it all

When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend
I get a coffee and the paper; have my own conversations
With the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit.